n. 排斥；厌恶
the quality of being disgusting to the senses or emotions
同义词： loathsomeness / sliminess / vileness / lousiness / wickedness
排斥的
... immorality不道德 repulsiveness排斥 sinfulness有罪 ...
Not only is she aware of her physical repulsiveness, she turns it to her advantage.
她不仅意识到自己的丑陋，还把它转变成本身的优势。
Each person is an isolated island. The more we wish to become a part of it, the more repulsiveness and resistance, which we don't know where they come, we feel.
“每个人都是一座孤岛”，愈是希望成为其一部分，愈是感到强大不知何来的排斥和阻力。